Hello all! Sorry I have been a little absent this past few weeks. I have been a little busy with life and we have been sick at our house. I have been checking other people's blogs on occasion, but have not been thinking of or interested in figuring out what to write on mine.
I realised today that I have totally been negligent and not thinking about my promise to myself of loving deeper and speaking sweeter. Poor DH has gotten his head bitten off more than once in the past week - let's been honest here, it's been more than once a day in the past week. :S I need to start having that at the front of my thoughts.
As well as getting back on board with my accomplishing things. I do not know if it has been all the days of icky weather and the fact that we were sick, but I am feeling so behind on everything, like I cannot catch up anymore. I feel like I am running and running and never getting caught up on that which I need to do. Things are getting done house wise though. I do need to get to other things though.
My mom's group is changing days too. I find that is throwing me into a bit of a loop too, as I was so used to it being on Wednesdays and now it is going to be on Tuesdays. Last week felt long, because usually when Mom's group has happened the majority of the week is over. Threw me into a bit of a tale spin. It'll work out though. Have I ever mentioned how much I love my Mom's group? Even if I have, it is worth repeating. Because R and I both enjoy it so much. I love the days that we have it, because I can go and get recharged somewhat. We talk about our kids and our lives and marriages. It is a place where I feel like I can completely be myself. And I really enjoy that.
Well, it is late and I really got to get to bed. I'm tired. Have a great sleep, or morning, or afternoon - depending on when you read this! :)
Showing posts with label Promise. Show all posts
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Monday, April 23, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Busy days, busy days
I cannot believe that it has almost been a week since I last posted on this blog. I do not even have the excuse that I was gone on vacation. We were gone for the weekend though, so I can use that! :)
We have had a busy week. I have been trying to be a better homemaker and actually get things done around the house and remember to do the things that I need to do. This has always been a bit of a struggle for me and something that I want to work on. It has been good, I feel like I have accomplished something by the end of the day, though at times I am extremely exhausted. Catch 22, eh? I have told enough people about this new promise that I feel OK about putting it into writing. :)
Speaking of my other promise, it has been going a lot better! I am quite aware of the fact that I want to love more and have been speaking a lot sweeter with DH and loving him more - or should I say showing him that the love that has always been there is still burning strong.
It's tough when kids enter the picture and your world turns from revolving around each other to revolving around that child. We are actually starting a book in our small group called "Childproofing Your Marriage" by Dr. Debbie Cherry. It is all about making your marriage a priority and the first important relationship so that your relationships with your children flow out of that and your marriage is strong when the children leave home. We just started it yesterday, but I am looking forward to it.
Back to what we've been doing....
Jobina, Riker and Trinity came to visit us on their Alberta trip on Friday. It was so good to see them and catch up. Wow, have the kids ever grown! And Jobina is looking amazing if I do say so. It was a short visit but a good one.
On Friday, R and I (DH was gone on a retreat) headed down to my sister and brother-in-law's. We actually went to my parents, but spent the nights at my sister's. It was so good to be able to spend time with my sister - I love her so much and appreciate her and the amount that our relationship has grown and matured over the past 4 years that we have lived in the same city as adults especially. It is so nice to be friends with the person who has known you the longest and still loves you so much! My grandma and aunt were here to visit, hence the weekend down there. They adored R - who wouldn't!?! - and kept commenting on how he was a good child. He had so much fun playing and spending time with Grandpa and took an extra shine to his Uncle M this weekend - sitting on his lap and wanting to be picked up. Luther as always was a favorite, though I do not think that is a mutual thing! :)
That is about all for now, I'll maybe put some pics in later if I have time.
We have had a busy week. I have been trying to be a better homemaker and actually get things done around the house and remember to do the things that I need to do. This has always been a bit of a struggle for me and something that I want to work on. It has been good, I feel like I have accomplished something by the end of the day, though at times I am extremely exhausted. Catch 22, eh? I have told enough people about this new promise that I feel OK about putting it into writing. :)
Speaking of my other promise, it has been going a lot better! I am quite aware of the fact that I want to love more and have been speaking a lot sweeter with DH and loving him more - or should I say showing him that the love that has always been there is still burning strong.
It's tough when kids enter the picture and your world turns from revolving around each other to revolving around that child. We are actually starting a book in our small group called "Childproofing Your Marriage" by Dr. Debbie Cherry. It is all about making your marriage a priority and the first important relationship so that your relationships with your children flow out of that and your marriage is strong when the children leave home. We just started it yesterday, but I am looking forward to it.
Back to what we've been doing....
Jobina, Riker and Trinity came to visit us on their Alberta trip on Friday. It was so good to see them and catch up. Wow, have the kids ever grown! And Jobina is looking amazing if I do say so. It was a short visit but a good one.
On Friday, R and I (DH was gone on a retreat) headed down to my sister and brother-in-law's. We actually went to my parents, but spent the nights at my sister's. It was so good to be able to spend time with my sister - I love her so much and appreciate her and the amount that our relationship has grown and matured over the past 4 years that we have lived in the same city as adults especially. It is so nice to be friends with the person who has known you the longest and still loves you so much! My grandma and aunt were here to visit, hence the weekend down there. They adored R - who wouldn't!?! - and kept commenting on how he was a good child. He had so much fun playing and spending time with Grandpa and took an extra shine to his Uncle M this weekend - sitting on his lap and wanting to be picked up. Luther as always was a favorite, though I do not think that is a mutual thing! :)
That is about all for now, I'll maybe put some pics in later if I have time.
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Me, the Shrew
I knew I never should have put the New Year's promise in writing. So far I am failing miserably at being a good wife and loving deeper and speaking sweeter!
Last night I went to work, after spending a couple of hours scrambling to find someone to take care of R because DH wasn't going to be home until an hour after I had to leave. Thank God that my neighbors were kind enough to rearrange some plans in order to take him.
I got home at 9:25 and DH told me that he had only gotten home at 6:30 instead of 5:30 as I had told our neighbors - I promptly went from loving wife who would have been concerned about my husband's first day on a new job to badgering shrew. It was not pretty... and to add into that we had a baby who got up for an hour right after I got home.
In my defense, after the initial explosion, I got back in the right frame of mind and asked DH to please let us have a "do over" and start again from the beginning of my getting home. We talked about his first day, my night and he called C (our neighbor) to apologize about being so late and not calling (he actually thought R was at our other neighbors and had called them and gotten a busy signal! :). We fed R a little more and gave him a bath and put him back to bed.
I really do want to love deeper though, and speak sweeter. I know this is something that I struggle with quite a bit and need to keep foremost in my thoughts as something I need to do. While I stumbled yesterday, here's to today being another day to try!
Last night I went to work, after spending a couple of hours scrambling to find someone to take care of R because DH wasn't going to be home until an hour after I had to leave. Thank God that my neighbors were kind enough to rearrange some plans in order to take him.
I got home at 9:25 and DH told me that he had only gotten home at 6:30 instead of 5:30 as I had told our neighbors - I promptly went from loving wife who would have been concerned about my husband's first day on a new job to badgering shrew. It was not pretty... and to add into that we had a baby who got up for an hour right after I got home.
In my defense, after the initial explosion, I got back in the right frame of mind and asked DH to please let us have a "do over" and start again from the beginning of my getting home. We talked about his first day, my night and he called C (our neighbor) to apologize about being so late and not calling (he actually thought R was at our other neighbors and had called them and gotten a busy signal! :). We fed R a little more and gave him a bath and put him back to bed.
I really do want to love deeper though, and speak sweeter. I know this is something that I struggle with quite a bit and need to keep foremost in my thoughts as something I need to do. While I stumbled yesterday, here's to today being another day to try!
Monday, January 1, 2007
Living Like I am Dying
Happy New Year everyone! Our New Year was pretty good, it was DH's birthday of course and his golden one at that - he turned 31 yesterday. We woke up and he opened cards. No physical gifts this year, but money to spend on what he wanted. We went shopping for the afternoon, to Old Navy for some things for my boys and to HMV for some CDs and DVDs. Now that DH is going to be getting a regular paycheck we finally feel like we can go out and spend some money. R also got a toy laptop as he cannot seem to leave our computers alone when we are on them and we are afraid thathe will break something one of these days.
Oh, on Saturday while I was at work, DH and R had gone and gotten us some 5.1 speakers for surround sound and they surprised me with a new coffee pot! I jumped up and down for joy and hugged my DH for all he was worth. It has a clock on it and a timer and a stainless steel carafe so no element to turn off. Oh, and a permanent filter, whatever they call it. So better for the environment (hey, Jobina, I'm starting small to do my part :) and the pocketbook. The past 2 mornings the coffee was all ready when we got up!
(I just realised that this is a bit of a ramble. Sorry guys!)
Anyway... back to yesterday. In the evening we went over to our freinds R and A's (no not the people from Survivor and The Amazing Race :) We took R and put him down there. Their son J was already asleep when we got there. They had a bunch of people over and we only knew a couple from before. We played games and talked - it was relaxing and enjoyable.
And 2007 arrived....
This morning DH was properly installing all our speakers and spent this afternoon getting all the wiring down and the I cleaned the house and we organised various parts of our house. While DH was trying out the sound system, I asked him to put on a song by Tim McGraw. I am not normally a country music lover, but this song always speaks to me. And it did again today. The whole point of this post, that has taken me a long time to get to, is that I wanted to share this song with you.
Live Like You Were Dyin' Oh, on Saturday while I was at work, DH and R had gone and gotten us some 5.1 speakers for surround sound and they surprised me with a new coffee pot! I jumped up and down for joy and hugged my DH for all he was worth. It has a clock on it and a timer and a stainless steel carafe so no element to turn off. Oh, and a permanent filter, whatever they call it. So better for the environment (hey, Jobina, I'm starting small to do my part :) and the pocketbook. The past 2 mornings the coffee was all ready when we got up!
(I just realised that this is a bit of a ramble. Sorry guys!)
Anyway... back to yesterday. In the evening we went over to our freinds R and A's (no not the people from Survivor and The Amazing Race :) We took R and put him down there. Their son J was already asleep when we got there. They had a bunch of people over and we only knew a couple from before. We played games and talked - it was relaxing and enjoyable.
And 2007 arrived....
This morning DH was properly installing all our speakers and spent this afternoon getting all the wiring down and the I cleaned the house and we organised various parts of our house. While DH was trying out the sound system, I asked him to put on a song by Tim McGraw. I am not normally a country music lover, but this song always speaks to me. And it did again today. The whole point of this post, that has taken me a long time to get to, is that I wanted to share this song with you.
by Tim McGraw
He said I was in my early forties,
With a lot of life before me,
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the x-rays,
I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the x-rays,
Talkin' 'bout the options and talkin' 'bout sweet time.
Asked him when it sank in, and this might really be the real end.
How's it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.
Man what ya do.
And he says,
[Chorus]
I went sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fu Manchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I gave forgiveness I've been denying,
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.
He said I was finally the husband, That most the time I wasn't.
And I became a friend a friend would like to have.
And all the sudden goin' fishing, Wasn't such an imposition.
And I went three times that year I lost my dad.
Well I finally read the good book,
And I took a good long hard look at what I'd doIf I could do it all again.
And then.
[Chorus]
Like tomorrow was a gift and you've got eternity
To think about what you do with it,What could you do with it, what can
I do with with it, what would I do with it.
[Chorus]
I went sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fu Manchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'.
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
The words that I bolded are the ones that always get me, as well as the line about finally being the husband that most of the time he wasn't (of course in my case it is the wife).
I am going to do a bit of a scary thing and put here in black and white for all of you to read...for my new year's promise to myself, I want to live like that. I believe it is the way that I should be living anyway, but I want to be more aware of the fact that I do not have forever to be the best wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter, etc. that I can be.
I want to love deeper, speak sweeter and live like I was dying.
I am going to do a bit of a scary thing and put here in black and white for all of you to read...for my new year's promise to myself, I want to live like that. I believe it is the way that I should be living anyway, but I want to be more aware of the fact that I do not have forever to be the best wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter, etc. that I can be.
I want to love deeper, speak sweeter and live like I was dying.
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