Living Like I am Dying

Happy New Year everyone! Our New Year was pretty good, it was DH's birthday of course and his golden one at that - he turned 31 yesterday. We woke up and he opened cards. No physical gifts this year, but money to spend on what he wanted. We went shopping for the afternoon, to Old Navy for some things for my boys and to HMV for some CDs and DVDs. Now that DH is going to be getting a regular paycheck we finally feel like we can go out and spend some money. R also got a toy laptop as he cannot seem to leave our computers alone when we are on them and we are afraid thathe will break something one of these days.
Oh, on Saturday while I was at work, DH and R had gone and gotten us some 5.1 speakers for surround sound and they surprised me with a new coffee pot! I jumped up and down for joy and hugged my DH for all he was worth. It has a clock on it and a timer and a stainless steel carafe so no element to turn off. Oh, and a permanent filter, whatever they call it. So better for the environment (hey, Jobina, I'm starting small to do my part :) and the pocketbook. The past 2 mornings the coffee was all ready when we got up!
(I just realised that this is a bit of a ramble. Sorry guys!)
Anyway... back to yesterday. In the evening we went over to our freinds R and A's (no not the people from Survivor and The Amazing Race :) We took R and put him down there. Their son J was already asleep when we got there. They had a bunch of people over and we only knew a couple from before. We played games and talked - it was relaxing and enjoyable.
And 2007 arrived....
This morning DH was properly installing all our speakers and spent this afternoon getting all the wiring down and the I cleaned the house and we organised various parts of our house. While DH was trying out the sound system, I asked him to put on a song by Tim McGraw. I am not normally a country music lover, but this song always speaks to me. And it did again today. The whole point of this post, that has taken me a long time to get to, is that I wanted to share this song with you.

Live Like You Were Dyin'

by Tim McGraw

He said I was in my early forties,

With a lot of life before me,

And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the x-rays,

Talkin' 'bout the options and talkin' 'bout sweet time.

Asked him when it sank in, and this might really be the real end.

How's it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.

Man what ya do.

And he says,

[Chorus]

I went sky divin',

I went rocky mountain climbin',

I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fu Manchu.

And I loved deeper,

And I spoke sweeter,

And I gave forgiveness I've been denying,

And he said someday I hope you get the chance,

To live like you were dyin'.

He said I was finally the husband, That most the time I wasn't.

And I became a friend a friend would like to have.

And all the sudden goin' fishing, Wasn't such an imposition.

And I went three times that year I lost my dad.

Well I finally read the good book,

And I took a good long hard look at what I'd doIf I could do it all again.

And then.

[Chorus]

Like tomorrow was a gift and you've got eternity

To think about what you do with it,What could you do with it, what can

I do with with it, what would I do with it.

[Chorus]

I went sky divin',

I went rocky mountain climbin',

I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fu Manchu.

And I loved deeper,

And I spoke sweeter,

And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'.

And he said someday I hope you get the chance,

To live like you were dyin'.

To live like you were dyin'.

To live like you were dyin'.

To live like you were dyin'.

To live like you were dyin'.

The words that I bolded are the ones that always get me, as well as the line about finally being the husband that most of the time he wasn't (of course in my case it is the wife).
I am going to do a bit of a scary thing and put here in black and white for all of you to read...for my new year's promise to myself, I want to live like that. I believe it is the way that I should be living anyway, but I want to be more aware of the fact that I do not have forever to be the best wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter, etc. that I can be.
I want to love deeper, speak sweeter and live like I was dying.