I have noticed that I have been very sporadic with my blog. It's almost been a year since I started it and though I started it wanting to be totally open and honest with myself and the world, I find I have been not writing because I have nothing of significance to say, or having things that I am mulling over that I am not sure I want to bare to the world wide web. I have considered going private, but then I will not get to "meet" more people, which this blog and reading other people's sometimes feels like the only social interaction I get some days. At the beginning I had a lot about R on here, but since starting his own blog for him, that has cut down the posts - though I am glad about that as I felt it was all about him and I needed my own space.
I think part of the lack of posts has been because I had wanted this blog to be about my spiritual journey as well as the every day life and thoughts I was having. but my spiritual life has pretty much been minor in my life the past half year or so. Not intentionally, just trying to figure some things out and know what I believe, not what I have been taught to believe. I have always struggled in my relationship with God - not believing in Him or His hand in my life or the lives of others - in not feeling His presence. I once started reading Messy Spirituality by Mike Yaconelli and didn't end up finishing it and it's been on my mind for the past few weeks to get it out and reread it. I think I need a reminder that it's not just me right now.
I didn't want this blog to be just fluff because I wanted it to reflect who I was and I am someone who can go deep. Though it is funny, because one of the ladies in my mom's group gave me a card last week and she said that she appreciates how funny I am. I don't think anyone besides DH laughs at/with me as much as my mom's group ladies. No one else probably thinks that I, myself, am funny. Oh, don't get me wrong - most everyone who knows me thinks I have a good, shall I say great, sense of humor - but no one has ever commented before Rose that I am humorous and not in a bad way. Makes me feel good.
I think that's all the thoughts I have for now. If there are more I will share, and I am going to get out Messy Spirituality and I will let you know how that goes.
Have a good Wednesday!
6 comments:
I totally understand how you feel. When I think about what to blog or when nothing comes to mind. Either it is not significant enough or I don't want to share it with everyone out there. I have enjoyed reading your blog and getting to know you through it.
That is the thing I love most about blogging - the getting to know other people and their families. I am glad that you found me here, Mel.
Rayna, know that i like hearing what's happening in your heart and your home. Blogging is kind of a weird thing cuz it's like an online diary that everyone can read but it's also freeing because you can write things without saying them to someone's face...like I said, weird.
hey Rayna...did I tell you that I miss you...still trying to figure out how I can come visit:)
Anytime Vanessa - let us know!
I go through the same ups and downs with my blog. Some days I think I could do 2 or 3 posts, then a week goes by and I have nothing to say. Oh well, in a way it mirrors our lives, right? We go through periods when we are in contact with SO many people, then we just hide away at home for a few days!
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