I am wishing that I was blogging more these days. I am finding myself with so much to say and yet don't know exactly how to say it. I am busy with feeding, changing, doing laundry, trying to teach my son things - he's learning the alphabet, thanks to Dixie's mention of the Starfall website. (I love this website, it is so awesome and R LOVES it!) Wednesday he spelled out Bob for me from the cover for his Bob the Builder Count to 20 book that Jobina sent when he was born - apparently it was Riker's favorite book when he was a little boy. (I know it by heart, FYI!) I have been trying to keep the house neat - and thankfully DH is very supportive in the cleaning arena, we have been getting some people to come and do a thorough clean every 2 weeks or so - and food on the table. As well as taking care of the finances and all the paperwork in our home. At times it all feels overwhelming. I'm not writing this to complain though or to say anything about the things I do. I'm talking about it more because I feel like I a not doing enough, that my son is watching too much Treehouse and I am not doing enough with my daughters - that they should be practicing sitting on their own or more tummy time.
This week we did not get together with anyone for a play date for R, or a coffee date for Mommy more like it. :) The Ls are sick this week, so no Mom's group as it is just us right now with the other mommies still working (the other two are pregnant presently, due in December). I am really feeling it today, the lack of adult company. DH and I have both been sick - DH with a cold and me with some sort of stomach bug. DH also had a night class at the U on Wednesday, so we haven't had any real quality time together this week. I feel pretty down today and a lot like just crying. I love my kids, but I really would love to just sit down and talk to another woman. I think I just need some encouragement that I'm not alone - that idea seems to be the most difficult one, especially for an extrovert like myself.
I will write a little more another time about all the cute things that R is doing and saying, how much he loves his sisters and how they respond to him, but right now I just needed to get this off my chest. Because this seems to be the only place I can right at this moment. And that's what this blog is for, right?
I gotta go feed A. Same old thing at our house. :) Just so you know, R is talking with K about what he is pretending. It's nice to see him trying to involve them in his play already. I really do love my kids! They are such blessings.
3 comments:
Honey, there is so much on our plates right now. I am very impressed with everything you do, are doing, and manage to get done. This morning before I left for work I stood at the counter and asked myself "How do groceries get into our house again? We don't pay anyone to do it, and yet it gets done! WOW!"
Our children are turning out to be fantastic because of you. I'm having all of my needs met. The house is running (ok, maybe fast walking) itself.
I love you babe! You are doing a great job!
Gosh Rayna,
It's hard being a mom. Sometimes I walk into a room, see the disaster and just leave because it feels too overwhelming. I think a lot of us can relate to some of your feelings, you've probably been running a lot on adrenaline. Life is settling in...yes, and Treehouse, Rayna, when else would you get the dishes done or get a load of laundry in??? Go easy on yourself!
Take care.
Jacquie
hang in there! i know how you feel. being a mom is the hardest job, i think. you are doing awesome, rayna! i've seen you in action and you are a great mom, wife and friend!
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