As his mother, there are various times in R's life that I will look at him and marvel. How can I love this child as much as I do? How can one little boy bring so much love that you want to burst with it? DH and I have laid in bed at the end of the day and marvelled over things he did and laughed over happenings and things he said. Before the girls got here, we were told by other people that your love is just as much for each of your children, that it doesn't divide, it multiplies. I knew cognitively that this would be the case, but in my heart I always wondered how I could have that intense of feeling for another child.
I was just looking down at A in her swing and was thinking to myself that my heart wanted to burst with the love that I was feeling. How can you love someone this much who you have only known for under three months. (Not counting the time inside.) And the same feelings are true for me of K. I have been blessed with three wonderful children whom I love so much. Thank you, God!
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Having twins really throws me for a loop. I look at one and ask "do I love one more than the other, or more than Rhys?" and the answer is always, from the first moment "NO".
So what is it that makes me feel different about each of my children?
Last night I finally figured out what it is about them individually that I feel exclusively from the others. I love them all the same but enjoy them differently and at times more than the others.
That's a great way to sum it up. I read this, walked into the living room and Peyton is counting bowling pins and trying to play a game with them, Brodie is sucking on a freezie he must have helped himself to, and Emmitt is gnawing on a toy. And my heart over flowed again. Every child is so different and those differences are the little things that makes them that much more special to me.
I've often thought the very same thing too. I know that I will love Baby #2 just as much as I love Helayna but it's hard to grasp until you really experience it, I think.
I never, ever imagined how much I would love Helayna so I know that I will love #2 as well.
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